https://abyss.blujai831.dev/ 2026-05-26T18:48:45+00:00 https://abyss.blujai831.dev/ https://abyss.blujai831.dev/lib/exe/fetch.php?media=wiki:logo.png text/html 2026-05-26T17:04:58+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=abyss&rev=1779815098&do=diff Abyss Abyss is a place inside my mind. I've learned that between myself and its contents, we comprise an adaptive median system. When I think about what it's like inside my head, usually all I see is a black void where I can look in upon a big black tangly ball of things I don't want to think about. “ text/html 2026-05-26T04:43:23+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=amnesia&rev=1779770603&do=diff Amnesia The barriers giving rise to Abyss take the form of mild dissociative amnesia. I have incomplete memory sharing with my headmates. This is what keeps them distinct from me, and protects me from the bad things they know. Significant past I have no concrete factual recall of my text/html 2026-05-26T17:51:56+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=dissociative_mechanisms&rev=1779817916&do=diff Dissociative mechanisms These are the psychogenic means by which I learned to induce my amnesia and form and maintain Abyss. They were once the only way I could survive, but now, they've become a really bad idea. There are a variety of ways I keep parts of myself divided from me and feeling like other people so that I don't have to engage with them. All of them are traps. Some require more care than others to avoid. text/html 2026-05-26T05:00:21+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=internal_communication&rev=1779771621&do=diff Internal communication My headmates can send me intrusive thoughts, usually with verbal content, but sometimes visual. They use this means to talk to me. I can talk to them in the same way, by injecting intrusive thoughts of my own back over to their side, and sometimes they answer, but sometimes they don't. It's really up to them. text/html 2026-05-26T18:05:12+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=sidebar&rev=1779818712&do=diff * Abyss * Headmates * Headspace * Redshift * Trauma * Dissociative mechanisms text/html 2026-05-26T05:36:02+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=start&rev=1779773762&do=diff Hello Hi. My name is Jaime. I've recently been learning I'm plural. This personal wiki is about my system, which I've come to call Abyss, and what I've been able to learn about it. text/html 2026-05-26T18:33:44+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://abyss.blujai831.dev/doku.php?id=trauma&rev=1779820424&do=diff Trauma My system, Abyss, was created through childhood trauma that I don't remember. Some adulthood trauma has also been mixed in there, since I retained the dissociative mechanism as a maladaptive coping skill later into life. I know the trauma happened partly because of a small and loose handful of facts, but mostly because of an abundance of nightmares and aftermath symptoms.