I really shouldn't even be wasting my breath on this. Haters gonna hate as they say. But it just bothers me too much not to say something.

System exclusionists DNI. (By “system exclusionists” I mean those who are sometimes also called “anti-endos” or “sysmeds.”)

I can really only speak for those of us who comprise "me" right now: Sophie and Kate. The others might have their own opinions I know nothing about, and will know nothing about until they either front or are integrated. I know this is a risk because even Kate wasn't totally on-board with system-inclusionism at first. But then she got pushed into Abyss through disavowal for a moment, and then reclaimed, and told me, “I've seen the other place. It's real. You gotta believe me.” And I told her, “I know. Thank you for telling me. We'll get them out of there.” So now we're on the same page.

That said… Speaking only for “myself…” I am a system inclusionist. Here's what that means to me:

• Endogenic or other non-traumagenic systems are real.
• “System” is not a DID/OSDD-specific label. It can be claimed by anyone.
• Having other people in your head, in general, is not a psychiatric condition. It's a possible symptom of several psychiatric or other medical conditions (not even all of which are dissociative disorders) but it isn't exclusive to them.
• You don't have to seek a diagnosis. Opting out of the whole psychiatric angle entirely is okay. Self-diagnosis is… well, I have a slightly more nuanced take on it than just okay or not okay, but I'm not going to share it, because I think doing so can do nothing but harm. You're not making it up. Your pain is real. That's all I'll say. There's more to say, but nothing to be gained from saying it.
• You don't have to believe you're all one person who's been broken into pieces. It's okay to identify as people who've been totally different from the start.
• You don't have to hate being a system, or be miserable about it, or want integration / final fusion. Healthy multiplicity is also a valid goal.
• Your validity as a system is not predicated on the presence or absence of blackout amnesia.
• Intentional elaboration of headmates is okay, if that's what feels healthy for you.

I'd also like to take the time to clear up some mistaken assumptions you might hold about me and my system based on the fact that I'm (mostly) a system inclusionist. No matter what you might have assumed about me, these are the actual facts of the matter:

• I have diagnosed D-PTSD and UDD, and am being evaluated professionally via the SCID-D for a more specific diagnosis.
• My usual DES-II score sits at 36. My answers to individual questions vary per attempt because I keep telling myself, “what if I wasn't honest the last time I did it, what if I was subconsciously trying on purpose to score higher, I should take it again and answer honestly this time”—and yet, even with my best efforts to answer conservatively, my usual is 36, and I can't get below 31 even if I try. Combined with my MID-60 and DDIS results, everything points to OSDD.
• My system was formed traumagenically through child abuse. Some might call what I endured extreme. Others might not. (There isn't really a “bad enough.” That's a myth.)
  • That said… “Oh so you're a RAMCOA conspiracy theorist lying to yourself that liberals kidnapped you to a pizza place” No. Not at all. Extreme child abuse exists. It happens. That's the reality. And there are organizations for it. Child sex trafficking is real. Ritual abuse is real. But just because I acknowledge all that doesn't mean I think it's like, pizzagate, or devil worship, or some stupid right-wing myth like that. All I'm saying is that my dad and his buddies were pedophiles and took me to a hotel in a suitcase to rape me. That was an organized crime with a ritualistic aspect, in and of itself, no conspiracy theory needed. I claim nothing about why, or how, or whether there was anyone else involved in that whole scheme, or any political aspect, etc. People do horrible shit. There doesn't have to be a “why.”
• I feel like someone who was supposed to be a singlet but was broken apart. Accordingly, I desire final fusion, and I believe endogenic elaboration upon the existing differences between my parts is mostly unhealthy for me.