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--- headspace:start [2026/05/31 17:33] – [Typology] jaime
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 ====== Headspace ======
-"Headspace" is what I call the interior of [[headspace:Abyss]] as viewed through a variety of [[:dissociative_mechanisms|dissociative]] lenses that distort and fictionalize it into something fantastical so I don't have to think about it as hard.
+"Headspace" is what I call the interior of [[headspace:Abyss]] as viewed through a variety of [[theories:dissociative_mechanisms|dissociative]] lenses that distort and fictionalize it into something fantastical so I don't have to think about it as hard.
-<del>I won't elaborate much on each location (i.e. won't give each location its own page) because I don't think it would be very useful to my healing process. I //could,// but each specific location is a metaphor, and the usefulness of each metaphor is transient. If there are places in there where I don't go anymore, it's probably because nothing remains to be gained from going there, and if I focus too intently on places that no longer serve a purpose, my [[headmates:start]] could get [[:redshift#tethering|stuck]] there.</del>
+<del>I won't elaborate much on each location (i.e. won't give each location its own page) because I don't think it would be very useful to my healing process. I //could,// but each specific location is a metaphor, and the usefulness of each metaphor is transient. If there are places in there where I don't go anymore, it's probably because nothing remains to be gained from going there, and if I focus too intently on places that no longer serve a purpose, my [[headmates:start]] could get [[theories:redshift#tethering|stuck]] there.</del>
 I changed my mind. The single-page list wasn't really cutting it. I ended up reproducing the more per-location-individualized format I used in the previous iteration of this subsite, but I've tried to cut down on melodrama a bit this time.
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             * [[headspace:Mom's house]]
               * [[headspace:Car]]
-            * [[headspace:Friend's house]]
             * [[headspace:Park]]
             * [[headspace:Infinite offturn]]
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           * [[headspace:Land of the big funky bugs]]
             * [[headspace:Civic auditorium]]
+            * [[headspace:Friend's house]]
         * [[headspace:Mannequin city]]
           * [[headspace:Dad's house]]
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           * [[headspace:Supervised visitation office]]
           * [[headspace:Abandoned elementary school]]
-          * [[headspace:Airport]]
           * [[headspace:Mobile shelter]]
           * [[headspace:News station]]
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         * [[headspace:Network of swimming pools]]
         * [[headspace:Empty parking garage]]
+        * [[headspace:Airport]]
       * [[headspace:Museum in outer space]]
       * [[headspace:Suitspace]]
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   * The [[headspace:mannequin city]] is horrible awful nightmare world where all the worst and most unacceptable things go. //Except// for certain //really// bad things. The //facts// live in mannequin city. But they're decoys. The //emotions...// well...
   * The [[headspace:shopping mall]] represents an intersection point where different memories all blend together and get confusing.
-  * The [[headspace:museum in outer space]] very clearly reflects some of my more subtle, toxic-positivity-oriented [[:dissociative mechanisms]], namely //glorification, fictionalization, analysis, fetishization,// and //endogenic perturbation.//
+  * The [[headspace:museum in outer space]] very clearly reflects some of my more subtle, toxic-positivity-oriented [[theories:dissociative mechanisms]], namely //glorification, fictionalization, analysis, fetishization,// and //endogenic perturbation.//
   * [[headspace:Suitspace]] is my "integration station." It's where I work to tie things together.
   * [[headspace:Hell]] is the realm of "if I'm so bad, let me be bad." The place where shame and anger come together to birth a //reclaimed// negative self-image. "I am the devil and that makes me cool as fuck."
-  * The [[headspace:meat locker]] is where potent trauma-related emotions are stored that I am ready to confront.
+  * The [[headspace:meat locker]] is where potent trauma-related emotions are stored that I am ready to confront, but haven't yet.
   * The [[headspace:featureless white room]] is the world of everything that's still stronger than me.
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 In theory, type B1 would be an autojected event site---that is, the setting of a daydream or creative work of mine, wherein the daydream or creative work has personal significance to me but the setting does not---but I don't find it useful to actually consider such locations to belong to my headspace.
-Also, in theory, based on my prior lists, A1 could be further subdivided, but I don't think that would actually be useful to me either.
 I will further qualify the type specifiers with the following suffices:
-  * -//f//: __f__uzzy: the location or its associated event is recalled from a real-life source, but my recollection of it is //not// entirely conscious or clear;
+  * -//b//: __b__lended; the location is associated with more than one specifically identifiable real-life source but they have all been rolled into one idea;
-  * -//m//: __m__emory: the location or its associated event is consciously and //clearly// recalled from a specific real-life source;
+  * -//c//: __c__onfining; it is possible to become trapped in this location;
-  * -//r//: __r__ecurring: the location or its associated event keeps coming up in my mind repeatedly;
+  * -//f//: __f__luid; the location has a highly dynamic structure and is easy to get lost in;
+  * -//h//: __h__azy; the location or its associated event is recalled from a real-life source, but my recollection of it is //not// entirely conscious or clear;
+  * -//m//: __m__emory; the location or its associated event is consciously and //clearly// recalled from a specific real-life source;
+  * -//r//: __r__ecurring; the location or its associated event keeps coming up in my mind repeatedly;
   * -//s//: __s__tream-of-consciousness: an autojected location contains subconscious elements;
-  * -//t//: __t__raumatic: the location is associated with a specific and concrete real-life [[:trauma|traumatic]] event, whether certain or only suspected.
+  * -//t//: __t__raumatic; the location is associated with a specific and concrete real-life [[functioning:trauma|traumatic]] event or category of events, whether certain or only suspected;
+  * +: positive; the location is connected mainly to positive feelings;
+  * -: negative; the location is connected mainly to negative feelings, but //not// to any specific and concrete real-life traumatic event or category of events.