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 | Glorification | Grief | "Oh, poor me, woe is me, I'm so persecuted and wronged and tragic, I'm such a victim, everyone should feel sorry for me." | The self who grieves puts the self who suffers on a narcissistic pedestal. |
 | Blame | Anger | "It's your fault I'm like this, not mine." | The self who blames refuses to take accountability for the self at fault. Functionally similar to disavowal, but the emotion is different. |
+| Psychic reinjury | Metacognitive frustration | "Tell me, dammit! Tell me what you know! I sick to death of being a goddamn amnesiac!" | The self who remembers shrinks away in mortal terror from the self who demands to know. |
+| Fetishization | Sexual arousal | "You were violated? Your innocence was stolen from you? That's hot, tell me more. It was fun, wasn't it? You liked it, didn't you? You deserved it for being cute." | In order to preserve the arousal, the self who is deeply pained by these cruel thoughts cannot be the same self who gets off on thinking them. |
+| Sociocognitive perturbation | Misdirected desire to heal | "Hey. Are you still in there? Everything okay?" | The point is to stay connected to the self to whom the message is directed, but it could have the opposite effect if they were already integrating and I didn't realize it. |
-All of these are ways of "stepping outside myself to think." Whether it's "hating myself," or "figuring myself out," or "putting myself on a pedestal," or "expressing myself," the essential problem that keeps happening over and over and over again is that I keep //stepping outside myself,// creating a self who stepped outside and leaving behind a self who was stepped out of.
+All of these are ways of "stepping outside myself to think." Whether it's "hating myself," or "figuring myself out," or "exploiting myself," or "putting myself on a pedestal," or "expressing myself," the essential problem that keeps happening over and over and over again is that I keep //stepping outside myself,// creating a self who stepped outside and leaving behind a self who was stepped out of.
 You might notice, by the very act of writing this wiki, I'm engaging several of these at once, and that's probably not healthy either. Trust me, I'm hardly oblivious to this. So, then, why do I do it? Wish I knew.
 It can be very difficult to tell the difference between dissociative mechanisms and [[internal communication]]. It's crucial to my healing process to be aware of the latter and keep track of it, but trying too hard to do so runs a high risk of invoking the prior.